i know.. we all like the smiling painting nail-girl... but not today...this is just like me photographed from the profile.. so...
(( darling, it never was that bad, so it has to be better, uhm..?))
so - 
[[come on...petal.. it was bad....not worse because you never were that happy by loving someone... and that sad by the fact that your inability to show it . to LOVE (you thought you loved but you had to learn it) destroyed a lot... and a good friend decided to go... but..it was bad.... and you got strong... and now you are stronger... because you know you do not want to lose the love and be stronger at the cost of it... so although it may hurt more, you will go thru it.. you will.. you have to be YOU- strong.. for both of you (if there were both...is there? isn't there...?); for your friends.. you have to you know that stronger and stronger.. and he loved you for that as welll... and NOW, you know you cannot lose the love... just be strong... it hurts more.. but is worth so much more... so come on petal... keep fighting.. come on... darling... sweetie..remember when you were called sweetie... just keep going.. keep going..
petal... keep going....
you do not want to do get stronger at the cost of love... even if it hurts more.. even if it is tougher.. because it would be so easy to kill it.. easy and impossible... you tried..
it would be so "easy" dear... is this what you decided to do?...
whatever, i just want you to be happy... am a friend. first and mostly - i was, have always been, am and will be your friend... could you believe it...? could you try to read , listen to what i said... try to understand... not to close everything thinking that it would hurt again.. could you...?
smile petal.. you look so beautiful when you smile... remember... ]]
2007-09-04 @ 15:56