Dear Mr Michael Buble,

Personally, I deeply believe that as a crooner, you have little chances to remain popular, once a certain singer called L.E. hits the stages over the world and charms your fans with his deep and amazing voice, and his class... yet! i have to admit, your version of this song touched me...and so I put it on here, I sing it along with you, dedicating it to someone very special...much more than that...the only person that i could ever dedicate this song to...who always will be special; now, when I know what 'always' means. ALWAYS... no matter how cheesy it may sound... ALWAYS.

best!

Petal

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yhzH-8JpSDY&mode=related&search=

"...Maybe I didnt treat you
Quite as good as I should have
Maybe I didnt love you
Quite as often as I could have
Little things I should have said and done
I just never took the time

Little things I should have said and done
I just never took the time
You were always on my mind
You are always on my mind
You are always on my mind..."

wow... lots to do now.. then a month in Peru in December ( or - that is the question... we'll see) , most probably - to learn a lot about myself, and be a better friend to all cement what I have learned.

after reading, and learning a lot now...

and in the mean time - start a course of Spanish, get a driving course, record demo, start lessons, continue excercises, sing! sing!...but most of all - just be better yes! lots of work i better start nooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooow

kirky as soon as I get something recorded, i will upload it here ( if i may, without getting PRO ) as promissed

and, since i hope to get new gigs in london very soon, I hope one day you all will pop in and listen live

Petal

Dear All,

After a damn annoying laringitis, i can proudly say that on Sat I will be playing my first big gig in london!! that will be partly recorded by a radio [wow]... www.orla.fm

I hope to have you all there!! please come along and bring your friends!!

my heart will be so happy to sing for you.... as singing is all about sharing...

Sat 15th Sep start at 20:00
in Jazz Cafe POSK

238-246 King Street, Hammersmith, London W6 0RF

thank you all! it all happened thanks to you holding my hand where times are tough....

[heart] for you!

petal

"...Love bears all things,
believes all things,
hopes all things,
endures all things.

For our knowledge is imperfect and our prophecy is imperfect;
but when the perfect comes, the imperfect will pass away. ..."

i am always there for you...and always your friend.

smile, please ..

you are so beautifl, L... esp. when you smile. 'coz one can see your heart when you smile.. and it is so beautiful.. i hope you will never forget how beautiful your heart is.

take care...

..

i know.. we all like the smiling painting nail-girl... but not today...this is just like me photographed from the profile.. so...

(( darling, it never was that bad, so it has to be better, uhm..?))

so -

[[come on...petal.. it was bad....not worse because you never were that happy by loving someone... and that sad by the fact that your inability to show it . to LOVE (you thought you loved but you had to learn it) destroyed a lot... and a good friend decided to go... but..it was bad.... and you got strong... and now you are stronger... because you know you do not want to lose the love and be stronger at the cost of it... so although it may hurt more, you will go thru it.. you will.. you have to be YOU- strong.. for both of you (if there were both...is there? isn't there...?); for your friends.. you have to you know that stronger and stronger.. and he loved you for that as welll... and NOW, you know you cannot lose the love... just be strong... it hurts more.. but is worth so much more... so come on petal... keep fighting.. come on... darling... sweetie..remember when you were called sweetie... just keep going.. keep going..
petal... keep going....

smile petal.. you look so beautiful when you smile... remember... ]]

..it pours.. it couldn't have gone worse.... i was sick.. but "3 weeks before the gig" i thought.. so all is gonna be fine, i thought..... and it seemed to clear out.. then sunday came... and i had fever.. and shivers.. my last week was meant to be hols.. my last days of annual leave entitlement.. spent in bed.. great last hols... but ok.. but ok... just get better and start rehearsing.... // now, i am seriously sick.. and have to be in the office.. my last week.... and the gig is approaching...and there is less hope that we..... so when it rains, it pours...it has been bad before..doctors wondering if i wake up etc.. and now you fought for two years.. for this one gig; and you lived your 27 years for this one MAN, worth of everything; a great kind man .. making you smile every time you see him...every time you think of his smiling face... the great MAN.... and now...he froze... he does not want to look back..... and so... when it rains, it pours... it fawking (thanks MAMA ) pours... like hell... like a shower someone left open just above your head... fawking pours.... and and and.. come on Petal.. come on... one more time.. like once you wrote in a song: "everyone has got their 100 %... and now is 300 or more.. but cut it down to sixty to make room for next.. and plenty after coma of sunshine.. " after it stops pouring...

a smiling drummer as well

thank you...

esp. now... you know...

(there was a private picture)

it's great to have you as a friend, dear Sasza

przepraszam!!!

mr drummer... a thoughtful drummer... a great drummer and a great friend

you want me to kill it...right?..i ask though i know YOU would never want it.. you used to repeat: you should know me by now... i do, i do.. dearest... but ..what am i suposed to do..? and sometimes i wonder: shall I just- do what you did?? - is this waht you did? - shall i just kill it.. and be numb as a nail... who can hurt, who cannot be hurt.. who does not want to feel.... but wouldn't I be again that precisely the dead flower you saved and turned into a rose..?? so what am i supposed to do? while you are killing everything in you.. or perhaps killed already... can IT be killed?... is there anything left in our hearts...? what am i supposed to do? not killing it means hurting ....happiness that you exist and pain that you feel hurt and went away.. because you did not want to see what i tried to explain.. you just shut and thought: "ok, this was a mistake, it is gonna only hurt me again, better to close it and never look back.. never look back" while one look at my face and what i tried to explain would make it clear that i never intended to hurt you/// but was scared to show that i care... was it what you thought? never look back....? and i am only the look back you are trying to avoid..? ...but in that case, am i supposed to kill it?... just to stop the pain for a sec... pain and joy... the peace and joy you give me..just because you are... just because you are.... but shall i make the impossible happen, and pay for it with my numbness and pain..change pain for pain... for the pain of numbness and sadness..... and numbness....is this what you wanna...dear? is this what you wanna...?

I know... it seems easier.... i forget you, you forget me...we go.. somewhere ...somehow....
but isn't it the worst possible option...? instead of keeping IT.. now when it would be so much stronger... because i learned you, and you learned me... and it is so much stronger......it seems easier Dear... but are you happy? is now making you happy..? would you give IT a chance to make you happy... anew... in present... with no past....

.....unless you are happy . fully happy now..... then... i am happy for you... as always....