... wondering... and again another important thought arrived: nothing new, and yet - it stroke again like a lightning... in the mist of missing you, dear...now, today, again, i do not belong(?)... we, us 4 ,at "home" we never did - lost children of a lost home... i kept fighting and smiling to fate saying NO; but it all took its toll, on you...when i belonged to you... / now i do not belong... No, not correct: i still, only to you.. only to myself and only to YOU.. but with you being gone..i do ..not... ?? .. belong.....
wandering on the streets of the lost city; the same distant and cold as all the others i have lived in... Poland, Germany, France, UK, where can I go? would it matter...because the only city i fit and matched like one spoon in the other spoon.. was you 
....sleep well...MILY... ( i love this Polish word.. hope to show you one day day, in my eyes and in my hands, and in my smile, what it means...)
kirky
I love your new avatar.
Also, you should read Hektor's blog.
You both seem to speak the same language.
I'd say you were well suited if not for the fact he's married.