so... old job is going, new was asking me to start with them asap, any moment, as i wish, any days i like.. and now - yesterday the big boss of the new job, who was calling me many times ( used to work for them, wants me to be back...) said that the small local boss may not need me ..88|88|88| [shock].. so am jobless, possibly, and after the notice ( and asking me five times: "are you sure? we want you back any time / we'll take you back whatever country you end up in..").. nice..hope that shall happen indeed, when necessary, but now I am already AFTER the notice, so can't go back... will have to: learn more:), sing more, and finally maybe (if i manage in 4 months), get a licence....keep working petal, keep working...

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you keep hoping.. you know that you love beyond belief.. for what he is, just as he is.. and you always will.. and as they said in one book " you have one LOVE, and that will do for a lifetime" :), 'coz you do not want any other... you only want him to be ok; and you'll be fine petal.. you'll be fine... you keep hoping.. (that he's ok..) ...you learned and changed so much:) little rose, little star.. keep.. keep.. keep.. smiling... :)