...i woke up.. thinking, remembering that day, when you froze,... last time ( remember? said you don;t but...) ; last time you offered help and smiled, and was soo.. so much you, like you are, so kind.. and i spat out a foolish sentence that all that it was ,was being like a kid.. as if you princelike gentlemanhood was being like a kid.... i spat out lies to.. to show you that i give you freedom.. whatever it was, it was so stupid.. and you froze, like on the first day i spat out this biggest lie that started it all.. and so you froze.. probably (consiously or not) thought that i would never change.. that it would never make sense.. and i tried to explain, but words are not actions... loving is not a thing of words.. but actions.. and so you froze; and are like ice now.. because you want to go, move on, be loved... and you do not believe i could..probably the same strong as i don;t believe i would ever love that strong.. anyone else.. even if you froze... and so i run away, for 4 days to see the sea.. to the place where i was just!! after we split... just after..if i had... if i could go there and move time back.. if i had known all that... had known what to do after my other visit there.. at the seaside... if i had known...in April... and so i run away.. loving means letting go.. the more you love, the more you let go... despite all.... so..so..though we all know i was never changed more, and never learned more, now you do not want to believe, and as a friend, I first and mostly respect it... because loving means...take care,ok?