so ,Dear London.... i started disliking you, ... (only) coz my life here was.. well we know: coming with nothing, working 12h per day or more : "for singing, for singing" and actually no singing at alll (at first); pretending i am so much interested in what i d never be interested ( "for singin, for singing"); coming back at 10 to wake up to work at 5; and i paid the price; US paid the price ( you paid the price, the highest ...= hurting you...since i was a - for the sake of brevity, let's call it only 'foolish' - a foolish friend); with lots of words and not many actions...((
yeah, a foolish friend...)) and so you London, remind me of all that, of the biggest miracle and adventure that changed me so much, from a frog to a princess, upside down, and yet, left - for the sake of brevity let us call it only 'missing' - left me soooo missing..and so... (je T'aime ...toujours..) 
.. but hey! there are stages here i have not sung at; there must be/ are!! corners i have not photographed; there must be tables i have not danced on; there must be trees i have not kissed under ; even if... even if.. even if.. let us turn words into actions!!!! i shall no longer say a word that will not be followed by an action... even if, even if.. all the fight will bring no victory... as we know may happen... as you London know may well happen..........going now, would be like giving up.. yes, i know: " i have to love myself"; and i do!! but precisely, you London know why and what it means for me now.. staying here... although my heart sometimes whines for abroad, and travelling and finally!! Buenos Aires (this has to wait since the buenos aires dream need an ingredient which i do not have ; though my limbs moan for a bit of Poland.. but only for some time..; we both, London know that it all would and does mean ... - nothing, in a way..; and going now would be like throwing in the towel; even if you are going to smack me with costs and lack of gigs, and most importantly - you know what..
and so, dear funny fast fu**ing fexciting London - shall we be friends?
ps. had my first session today; doing it for myself - to be a so much better friend!; doing it for US.. even if i don't know.. i fear to know... even if.... doing it for you, like i d always do, everything only for you... my dearest...what do you want me to do for you?...
